Twenty-five years ago, I attended a drama school and came quite close to becoming an actor. Although I made a different life choice, that experience significantly influenced my personality. Since then, the theater has been more than just a place to watch a play; it’s a community of diverse individuals, each harboring numerous hidden internal processes.

In 2023-2024, I embarked on a project-investigation, returning to the theater environment, this time as an external observer. I aimed to reevaluate my experiences and memories. This project was captured at the small experimental theater «Total Theater» in Almaty, Kazakhstan.

Within every person, numerous personas coexist: how they see themselves, how they aspire to be, and how others perceive them. For actors, there are additional layers of their roles. Such emotional and mental complexity has a rupturing effect on ordinary human relationships, and in the life of every theater, the disintegration of old relationships and the emergence of new communities happens with predestined frequency. It is a deeply personal perception of the theater.